Hello there,
Here's the update on the life. So as you can tell, I only write when I have a problem I want to talk through and can't seem to do that with another person. Well let's start with the Cam...
He is such a terrific guy. I have never and I mean NEVER had a boyfriend treat me with such respect and care. Like he would do anything for me and I'm very in love with him. But on the other hand every other aspect of him is wrong. First and foremost; he's 26. And the age thing does really annoy me, I wish it didn't, but it inevitably does. And then, his life is on a fast track to no where. He's a welder's helper making only eighteen dollars an hour. I'm pressuring him to go to school, but I'm doubting he ever will. And the fact that he's settled with being a welder's helper erks me soooo much. Cam's home life is a disaster. He lives with this guy named Eric. Eric has 2 dogs and 2 cats and the house is absolutely disgusting; how can Cam be alright with living there? And then in his spare time, his only interest is drinking and partying. And he's 26, are these things ever going to change? We've been fighting a lot over these things, and I wish he would just show some incentive towards changing.
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Sunday, January 2, 2011
It's time for a New Year...
So after a brief look at last year's resolutions I can happily say my resolutions are much more mature and MUCH MORE insightful to the person I am and want to become. The theme of 2011 is "I AM WORTHY!" Let's hope I can also follow these "conclusively".
1. Stop caring about weight and looks. And start concentrating on what my body CAN do and health. Worry less about how others perceive me and worry about how I perceive myself. That is what is most important. The people who will truly love you, will love you even if you are ten pounds heavier than what you would like to be. Which leads into...
2. Stop caring and internalizing others opinions of myself. Not everyone has to like you and not everyone will, but you need to like yourself before anyone can like you. If people don't like you in Valleyview, what does it matter? I'm not going to be coming back here for much longer, so don't let all the people get to you! I know it's hard to understand and comprehend that people can hate you for absolutely nothing, but you DON'T have to understand and you can be happy that you're not them. Because the people I hate and try and make them feel bad, I know exactly why I hate them and as do they.
3. Don't let people take advantage of you. Stand up for yourself; you are worthy! People are no more important than you are. You deserve things just as much as they do, so why stand in the back?
4. Make new friends; go out of your way to do it. People aren't always going to find you so you have to go and find them. Remember, when people first meet you, they are often smitten with you're charm; why would that change now? You just aren't giving them a chance to get to know you.
5. Date guys who care about you, and are willing to put in the effort. Don't stay just because it's easier to have someone around. Loneliness should never take precedence over what your deserve. I have a lot to offer and I should settle for people who also have a lot to offer.
I think I'm going to stop here, wish you the best this year! <3
1. Stop caring about weight and looks. And start concentrating on what my body CAN do and health. Worry less about how others perceive me and worry about how I perceive myself. That is what is most important. The people who will truly love you, will love you even if you are ten pounds heavier than what you would like to be. Which leads into...
2. Stop caring and internalizing others opinions of myself. Not everyone has to like you and not everyone will, but you need to like yourself before anyone can like you. If people don't like you in Valleyview, what does it matter? I'm not going to be coming back here for much longer, so don't let all the people get to you! I know it's hard to understand and comprehend that people can hate you for absolutely nothing, but you DON'T have to understand and you can be happy that you're not them. Because the people I hate and try and make them feel bad, I know exactly why I hate them and as do they.
3. Don't let people take advantage of you. Stand up for yourself; you are worthy! People are no more important than you are. You deserve things just as much as they do, so why stand in the back?
4. Make new friends; go out of your way to do it. People aren't always going to find you so you have to go and find them. Remember, when people first meet you, they are often smitten with you're charm; why would that change now? You just aren't giving them a chance to get to know you.
5. Date guys who care about you, and are willing to put in the effort. Don't stay just because it's easier to have someone around. Loneliness should never take precedence over what your deserve. I have a lot to offer and I should settle for people who also have a lot to offer.
I think I'm going to stop here, wish you the best this year! <3
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